i must admit, when i first heard of the book, i was riddled with jealousy. unbearable, seething, ugly jealousy of a caliber that i was ashamed to admit to even those who know my ugly side.

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however, in my defense, i'd like to note that part of that may have to do with the fact that i had a book with that very publisher (a book that was under serious consideration, i might add) but was passed over around the same time that KV's was picked up (for a half-million, no less

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however, i can't help empathizing. at 19, i was still trying to figure out my morality. still trying to get my bearings in this big, scary, unforgiving world. and, at 19 i was desperate to prove my own worth, all around. i was vulnerable to the whims and influences of the big-wigs around me.
there is another element of this story in the blogosphere. it seems that KV originally proposed a different novel to her agent (or publisher, not sure which). however, her idea was apparently "too dark" for the agent/publisher, and she was "encouraged" to make the story more chick-lit. maybe she was given MM's books in the meantime to show her what they were looking for?
i'm not excusing, just wondering. if that part of the story is true, it's a hard lesson to learn about integrity and sticking to your own ideas. i can see a writer that young wanting to prove she's worth her salt and wanting to please her parents and her editors and everyone else. the holy grail in her palms. and then snatched away before she can even savor it.
sad, just sad.
