An #ownvoices contemporary/realistic YA debut. and winner of the 2020 Schneider Family Book Award for the teen category. 14 year Erica "Ricky" Bloom, is newly diagnosed with a painful chronic illness and seriously pissed off about it. Her body hurts constantly, her family’s a mess and the boy she’s crushing on seems completely clueless. The best coping mechanisms she can come up with are cursing and cutting school. But when her truancy is discovered she must struggle to catch up in school to avoid a far worse horror: repeating ninth grade.